Bugs Birthday

With Bugs party coming up we got ready Wednesday by going and getting our nails done, so much fun. We've also decided that's how were going to spend our Mommy and Bugs time. Daddy will be on baby duty and she and I will have relax time.

We had so much fun this weekend with everyone for Bugs birthday party. Things started out a little rocky when we showed up to the hotel, wrong room than no room...but everything worked out. We were able to get situated in two joined poolside rooms. Bugs was so excited to be there did a TON of swimming. We took it easy Friday night. Bugs and Daddy spent some time playing in the pool then we snuggled in just the three of us. Well the snuggling lasted all of till Bugs fell asleep where she then proceeded to kick me out of bed, literally. Then in the morning started getting ready for the fun ahead. A few of her friends from school were able to make it up for swimming and cake. Later her cousins came by to celebrate and swim some more. We did try another pinata...they just don't go as planned for us. Though we do end up getting some good laughs. Auntie Angee and Isa got to spend the night also. It was amazing. A great way to make sure she remembered how special she is to us before things get hectic with her sister coming. Though I know she's excited for her to get here, there will be some getting used to to be had when she comes. It's a change when you're not the only child anymore. :)

Thank you everyone for coming and celebrating!!!

Bugs is 7!

Holy moly crazy, Bugs is 7! That’s so crazy to think. I mean it doesn’t feel like just yesterday that she was a baby, yes I remember it but it’s wasn’t just yesterday. We’ve been through so much in the last 7 years. The fun joys of infancy, moving to an apartment, then moving again and Robert coming with us. Then we moved to Daddy’s house, got a few more animals, became a big sister, learned firsthand about loss and now becoming a big sister again. She’s grown up so much it’s sometimes hard to believe she’s 7. Though we’ve come to the attitude stage (yes worse than the 2s ha), you’d swear she was a teen already, I don’t know what I’d do without her. I love seeing her grow up and learn about life and grow into her own little-miss-self. Though somedays can be stressful, I’m so happy and blessed she calls me Mom.
She’s had a fun birthday day and it’s only going to continue this week.
Woke her up singing Happy Birthday and she just laughed! I made some treats for her to take to school…well I made two. It was a disaster! [Key info, two kids in her class have peanut allergies] I thought I was doing really good, got white cake and was going to make apple cupcakes with homemade frosting (butter, brown sugar and powdered sugar) thinking that would be great, no peanuts right? Not! I wasn’t really thinking and before I made the cupcakes I made peanut butter cookies and used the same bowl (washed it with hot water and soap but not through the dish washer) so scratch that batch to be safe. Then I decided I would make the cereal chocolate mix I made for her party a few years ago…again no peanuts right? Just Corn Chex, Lucky Charms, white chocolate and sprinkles…yeah got everything ready then read on the chocolate bag and it says “may contain peanuts”, what the heck! So I decided scratch the chocolate and use marshmallows, like rice crispies…what a sticky mess that was. Well out of time so we’ll just go with it. Then I picked up Bugs at school….those kids don’t eat the snacks anyways! Grrrr. I mean I understand better safe than sorry…but still grrrr it was very stressful for me, I tried really hard so they wouldn’t feel left out of the fun. So Bugs and I decided that from now on we’ll bring like fruit snacks and juice boxes. After dance class we made salad, spaghetti & breadsticks, Bugs choice, and she got to open “all” of her presents. She’s gotten a few here and there this past week but she was really excited to now get to open all of them ha. Silly girl.
Then tomorrow it’s up to Auntie Angee’s then to Papa’s for lots of food and you know more presents ;) .

Bugs' Greif Growth

I always knew, since I started thinking about having kids when I was younger, that I wanted my kids to have years in-between. I had said I wanted 5 years. Partial for the first born to be old enough to have fun being the older sibling, close enough though that they would still have fun together when they got older and also for me, that I wouldn’t feel like I was paying attention to one more than the other. So when I had the second the first would be in school so I would have that time to extra dote on the second and then be able to give more attention to the first when they got home from school. Yeah that probably sounds a little bit/way too planned for something like this but that was my idea. I was lucky that God had the same plan for me...I thought at first…but he had something a little different planned out. I was still blessed with babies aged apart how “I” had planned but his reasoning was not the same. Where I thought I would have time to dote on each in their time he knew that I needed my Princess to be a little older when we met Trysten. That Bugs being the age she is was going to give her the chance to meet, know and remember (which is key for me) her brother. That though it was going to be a struggle for all of us, including her, it would be a joy for all of us to do it together. As much as it pains me when it is happening I feel blessed and blessed for Bugs that she has been able to experience a love so strong that she still remembers and will stay with her all her life.
We have been experiencing the struggles for her a little more now than before, which is not a bad thing. As we have been doing more things with Angee’s boyfriend’s daughter (whom we will call Puppy  ) Bugs is seeing all the things that she’ll miss with Trysten. She is such a big sister to Puppy (which is amazing!) but it does hit her every now and then what a sister does with a sibling. Last weekend all of us were at Moms and we had a blast, but there were a few times that we (Bugs & I) had to take a moment and reflect. I feel blessed that she is old enough to understand and to learn that it is okay to just feel sad and cry sometimes. That we are close enough that we can just cry together and she knows that even though something sad happened to us and we won’t ever forget it we can also remember the joy it brought us. The thing that brings me the most joy is that she feels comfortable enough to talk about Trysten and what happened. That even when she draws family photos she includes Trysten, with us and in heaven. Though we had something dear to us taken away…I still feel so blessed.