ready to hear her cry

So that may sound odd to most people but it honestly is one thing I'm most looking forward to, hearing her first cry. You're probably thinking "ahhh you're crazy, babies cry all the time". This is true but especially with that first cry it's the sound of health a life. With Trysten we didn't really get a chance of that. He let out a little cry once and that was all we got to hear. I know already it'll be a bittersweet moment and I'll probably ball my eyes out :) ha.

Also I'm ready to hear her cry because that will mean she's no longer shoving on my bladder, sides or ribs :) . Now I love being pregnant and the look of my belly, even though I get non-stop comments.
"Oh how do you look so tiny and cute, I looked like an elephant when I was pregnant" I don't know I just got pregnant and this was how it turned out, take it up with God when ya see him.
"You look so cute, I was a mess" It's called having a good face wash that makes you feel good [DEVONNE], makeup to cover up the crap and 'fake it till you make it'. You see me put together and looking cute but inside really I feel like the hunchback with everything pushing to come out.
I enjoy the fact of being pregnant and what it brings so even though inside I'm in major pain and nauseous most of the day, I don't show it because what's the benefit? It's not going to make me feel any better so why not put on a smile and be excited for what's to come. Even though walking has been my biggest pain I still have to get up and go on with my day. I can't wake up and be like "sorry Bugs my pelvis feels like it's going to break you have to get yourself on the bus" or not get ready and go to work... It's a part of life; you take it, you deal with it and you keep going. So yes even though I love all the joy of being pregnant and people may look at me and think I have it so easy because I don't gain 60lbs, I'm very ready for our little Nars to come.

But first to decide on a darn car seat! Who thought it would be so difficult to pick one out ;)

Any Day Now...

Any day now! Literally. We're at 36 weeks which means she's okay to come any time her little heart is ready to. Which hopefully she at least waits till after Friday since I'll be in the cities taking in some new marketing information. Guess that also means we should finish packing ha. I have Bugs' bags done now just to get the final of my stuff together and Barry's, though his will take like 5 seconds cuz you know he's a guy so he's like "I got underwear and my laptop I'm good" ha.
With things ready to go any time we did want to get out information for the hospital so when she decides to come everyone has the information. We will be at Winona Health (855 Mankato Ave Winona, MN 55987). For those coming from the cities it's Hwy 52 to I-90 to the Winona exit. Those of you in this area...we're guessing you know ha ;).

This is what the building looks like, you will enter the opposite side though (Emergency doors)

Key notes:
* Visiting hours are from 8am-8:30pm
* Visitors are welcome during early labor, I don't mind
* If I can't eat neither can anyone else in my room ;)
* It's a small area (unlike Mayo) so the "family room" is in very close proximity to the delivery rooms and is a pretty good size


Our requests:
* Once she arrives the first hour or so will be just the 4 of us. Time to take it all in and feed her. After that you're welcome to visit.
* We request that people do not post on Facebook or other social media her full name/information. Bugs has dubbed her Nar, or you can refer to her as Baby Churchill. If people ask what her name is we request that you contact them privately. It is just a personal preference that we don't use names but nicknames like Bugs'. We use Trysten's because that's all we have of him.
* Barry would love anyone who brings him McD breakfast haha ;)

After she arrives we will also start figuring out a date to have her Welcome Party and will send out the info ask soon as we know.

We are so blessed and excited to share this amazing time with all of our family and friends. Thank you for all of your support!

Christmas, What We're Missing and Looking Forward To Come.

The best part of Christmas though, the best gift I could and did receive....from my Dad. He got a cute polar bear ornament and put Trysten's bracelet on the back.

Christmas.... Merry Christmas has come and gone I guess sort of. Christmas day is gone but we still have more to go. This Christmas was an off/odd one. For the first time in like ever I actually planned ahead with my gift getting. Normally I'm frantic on the way to Christmas celebrations trying to pickup gift cards and such. This year though I had almost all gifts done and wrapped before we left the house. I only had to pickup one gift card (because I finally decided which I wanted to get), swap a present because someone had already gotten that same one :) and then Cams chicken because I forgot the ones we bought in the freezer in our rush to get on the road - go me! As far as the "Festive Christmas" feel though...it really wasn't there. We didn't put up like any decorations, no tree (which luckily Bugs wasn't too partial to having one), it started because we didn't know where to put it. We also have boxes all over from cleaning/organizing and with Mable we figured she'd get into it more than the cat ha. It just didn't feel much like Christmas for me. I didn't realize it at first as to why but then sitting in evening service it sunk in...I miss Trysten. Last year I was sitting in the same church holding my growing moving belly, listening to the same story and singing the same songs. This year I should be doing the same but also planning presents for a starting to walk little boy. Enjoying his first Christmas. Christmas with him and Bugs, seeing and waiting for Santa to come. I think what made it harder is seeing all the pictures of other little babies on Facebook getting ready for the Holidays. Though they made me smile and excited for them it also reminded me of what we will always miss. Yes that's a really sad thing to think about but it's also the truth. It's the truth we will never be able to get away from. There's also another truth though...if Trysten were here today there is a likely chance we wouldn't be planning for Bugs' little sister. As weird as that sounds, almost trading one for the other...but maybe God has something planned/thought of. I'm not saying it wouldn't have happened, having two babies that close together but it's also something I've never really planned. I like the thought of my babies having some distance. Now 7 years was a little more than I anticipated...but it is whats in God plan is in his plan and it does excite me a bit. Though she was super excited at 5/6, she's even more excited now. She's going to be an amazing big sister again. Even though Trysten's not here in body, she's still the best big sister to him any mother could ask for. She thinks of him all the time and warms my heart. She's so exited to take care of her little sister. Feed, change, play and everything else. Even with other babies she's a super big sis they may not have. Like with J, she just loves that little girl. She talks all the time about babysitting her and if we say we're going to the cities - "are we going to see J?" :) . Makes me so excited. Two months at most and Bugs is going to be the happiest girl in the world. Holy crap two months!!!